From Within the Cocoon
Blog Entry

06/30/06

Extreme Joy and extreme sadness feel almost exactly the same. They both rip my heart open and make tears run down my face. The only way I can tell the difference is that Joy contains the most profound sweetness I've ever experienced. It is this sweetness that causes the pain because it is a sweetness I can barely contain. Sadness hurts the same, but does not contain the high-pitched frequency of the sweetness.

Birth and death are the same doorway. I know. I've been there more than once. The different labels are only for which direction through the door you're going. Apparently, the same is true of Joy and sadness. One way leads into the Light, the other away from it.

I feel as though many old wounds that healed over improperly have been reopened this week so the old poisons can drain away and new healing begin. It feels like severe emotional/spiritual sunburn – a rawness, old things I don't need anymore being stripped away all at once.

What is being revealed underneath, I'm not quite sure.

It is delicate, vulnerable – like spun glass, remaining beautiful and intact while lovingly cared for and protected, but easily shattered and likely to cut your hand if you would break it.

Still, I get the sense it is stronger stuff than I know in this moment, able to rebuild quickly from the shattered pieces and come back for more again and again like the broom of the Sorcerer's Apprentice.