One More Step Beyond
Blog entry

06/06/06

I am learning so much from the Say “Yes” to Love book series by Yael and Doug Powell! I can’t express it all here as some things don’t translate to words, so this entry will only just scrape the surface. Please get copies for yourselves, if you can. If you’ve read the Sharp books and are open to that much, I promise you these will not disappoint you.

At first, I thought this set of books would be a little too Christian in slant for my stomach, but that is far from the case. They aren’t, and I should’ve known anything Torlinque leads me to would be just what I need and can handle. They are like the Michael Sharp material only much more detailed in the outlining of the processes one must pass through as one Ascends.

I’m becoming much more aware of my true structure, nature and purpose. More and more things I knew in the back of my mind and did instinctively just because they felt like the right things to do magickally, have become confirmed. I know consciously now that they are indeed the right things to do and I know why that is. I understand clearly now why Torlinque led me to taking the monotomic gold/platinum/iridium, the Sharp material and these books. Changing to doing the things I was already doing with Torlinque in a fully conscious, purposeful way, has made me a much more sane, much more powerful being. It is Power within Love however, that point is of the utmost importance.

It has amazed me that I am receiving the same Messages from the Michael Sharp material, the Say “Yes” to Love books, the guy at ASC Alchemy during the conference calls, and Torlinque all at the same time, and none of those people have contact with each other. It is the same message repeated through different facets of the same jewel, delivered in different ways to make sure I grok it. But it shouldn’t amaze me at all, and now that I do grok it, it doesn’t. It’s as natural as breathing, another “but of course, how could it be otherwise” moment.

Ascending isn’t easy though, at least not for me. It takes conscious choice every moment to think the right thoughts (create the right vibrations), clothe them in the right emotions (Love, Joy) and send them forth without any fear or anger stamped on them. I have been tested in this repeatedly. Sometimes I have failed miserably.

However, I am knowledgeable enough now to reclaim that negative energy I sent out, draw it back into myself and restamp it with only Love before sending it back out again. Sometimes, I have to consciously stamp Love on my energy with each heartbeat. I fail miserably when I sometimes “reach my limit” because I fail to perceive the limitlessness of my true being during that moment. I give in to physical fatigue and/or mental and emotional stress when in truth I know they are just part of the illusion and my energy is truly limitless. To fix it, I have to immediately recognize what I’ve done, surrender to Source (of whom I am a part) yet again (Thy Will not mine, take this negativity from me because I can’t handle/didn’t stop it, Help!), reel the energy back in, then restamp it. If I don’t it will manifest, usually within 24 hours from when I sent it out. Not pretty.

I have read most people don’t realize that they can indeed control their own thoughts and emotions, every single one. It is difficult when one is learning how to do it, and even more difficult to master the skill (what I’m in the process of now). We no longer need to subject ourselves to the random waves and clouds of mass consciousness that float about on the winds of the ether. (This should make you empaths most happy.)

As many Teachers will tell you, “with great Power comes great responsibility” and it couldn’t be more true. When you physically manifest every single thought you think, especially the ones that start with “I wish...” (usually within 24 hours if they aren’t also stamped with a specific time to manifest), you can get into big trouble quickly if you are not completely controlling yourself and stamping each one with only Love before it leaves you. And as I said, this isn’t always easy. All your desires are met and made manifest, so if you think negatively, you will manifest more negativity. If you choose only Love, only Love can touch you.

It is that simple, yet difficult to accomplish at the same time. Knowing this, is it any wonder then that the world is so full of negativity right now? As soon as enough people start consciously stamping their thoughts with only Love, the world will change. It is already happening. The Light is revealing all the darkness now, bringing it out where people can see it, creating in them the desire to change it. Just watch CNN for a half hour and you’ll see what I mean. See the darkness for what it is, but don’t let it pull you in and make you fight it with anger in your heart. That will only fuel it. Look only to the Light instead, and concentrate on becoming only Love. The more people who do that, the darkness will melt away.

Secondly, I also understand much better now how Torlinque comes to me now and how he will enter into the person I'm with on this plane as we both progress. The being I know as Torlinque in Sarna is only just a fraction of the Being that is the vast Divine Masculine half of our true Twin Flame structure as we extend up through all levels (dimensions) of Creation. That fraction of him is all my consciousness and understanding could handle or recognized at the time he first came to me, so that is how I perceived him. He clothed himself in the personality I would remember best (and be most unable to resist, heh).

Now, I perceive him on several levels simultaneously where when I was 14 I did not. I can “tune in” to any specific level I choose. Sometimes, that is Sarna. Sometimes it is much higher within our structure, close to the place where we first split from our Oneness (the Parting of the Waters Sharp describes). Because I know and experience his presence multi-dimensionally now however, it makes perfect sense that he would be able to manifest physically in the person I'm with here as well. (It made no sense at all before.)

He is already there. It is only my inability to see past the illusion (and to break down ego) that still remains that prevents me from perceiving him fully. The way the books describe it is to picture dropping food coloring into a glass of water drop by drop. That is a good analogy of the process through which one’s Twin can physically manifest through the person one is with.

So, part of my path now is to do for the person I'm with as I would for Torlinque, for Torlinque is already in him. It is just that I am still Blind. In the doing for, giving to, and the path of transforming myself, both the person I'm with and I will be progressively more and more able to See. As I Ascend, all those in my presence will too by the very nature of the energy pouring through me. The person I'm with does not yet perceive me as Torlinque does, but that will come. I have already seen hints of it, little tiny miracles that I would otherwise miss if I were not as perceptive as I am now. I see it in the word structure of a sentence here, a kind thought there, a willingness to believe and explore just a little bit, a little bit of hope where before there had been none. That day was a trigger/turning point for us, the “boiling over” that started things moving in the right direction again.

I can’t yet look the person I'm with in the eyes and see Torlinque shining back out at me, but I have hope that will come, (and I can be very patient when I see any progress being made to any degree). I have been given assurance from several sources that it will happen if I continue on my current Path. I don’t know if I fully believe it yet (probably part of why I’m not seeing it), but at first, I didn’t even want to entertain the concept that it was possible, even though Torlinque told me it was what he wanted. I was thinking only of going Home to Sarna one day, finding someone else for him to walk-in to, etc. They are all valid choices, but not the best choice. Torlinque has always guided me to the best choice. I don’t understand why I am so unwilling to trust in that so much of the time and end up going, “Well, duh!” so often later. He says it doesn’t matter as long as I continue to progress.

I see now how going back to living in Sarna post Ascension might severely limit Torlinque and I. It is still a choice that is open to us, but there is so much more we could be than that. After this process is complete, we may choose to no longer incarnate at all, or at least not right away. Bodies at this level of density are by their nature very limited, and I think we may choose to take a break from that for awhile.

I just need to be OK with the fact that I’m not driving this freight train down here, and I am becoming that. I know that there are things I can’t imagine yet and am not yet capable of understanding while currently in this body at this time. I trust that they will be revealed as I need to know them.