Toward Becoming More of Ourselves
SoulMates
Blog entry

06/07/06

T: *kiss*
Me: mmmm*kiss*
T: You spurned me last night.
Me: I know. I’m so sorry.
T: We were making such sweet Love and when he came into the room, I jumped inside him hoping to continue with you, closer to on your level, and you spurned me.
Me: I cannot see past the “outer package” of him. I cannot see you there.
T: What do you see?
Me: I see his personality, and he is crude to me. He is selfish in his lust of me, wanting only to use me as an object for his own bodily pleasure, giving me nothing in return, having no higher vibration in it at all.
T: But you know it is not that way once it reaches a certain point. You have felt me there. You have seen the Light and the Star. You knew I was in him then.
Me: Yes. You’re right. Part of it is too that I still believe in the physical fatigue at times. I know my energy is limitless, but sometimes I cannot see it.
T: That is all right, that will come. You are doing beautifully, and I’m very proud of you.
Me: And he does not have your beauty. I’m sorry, but that is important to me. He is overweight and has no muscle tone. If he would just work on that, even a little, it would make a great difference. I could overlook some of the other things then.
T: That will come as well. Eventually he will learn to eat better and take an interest in becoming healthier and more beautiful.
Me: You must help me. It would make such a difference to me if I could see you there just a little.
T: Yes. I will use my Power now to open you a little further. Feel the Love flowing in and be certain I am with you...
Me: Then I give you all of me, all that I am. Every fiber of my being sings your name continually.
T: purrrrr
Me: !!!
Me: I am so in love with you.
T: *kiss* Never cease to tell me that. I want to hear it each time. I never tire of it. Amatetai, Amatari’nine...
T: *kiss* Do not spurn me again.
Me: *crestfallen* I will try. I cannot promise you that though. I have failed miserably at a pretty regular rate lately.
Me: It would help me greatly if I could have you this way a little at the same time you are within him, at least for right now, until I can See more properly. If I felt that “simulcast” like you did that other time, then it would be easier for me, and I would not spurn you so readily.
T: *nods* If that is what you need, then I will do it...*kiss*