'Tis Better To Give Than To Receive
Blog entry

07/05/06

I'm learning so much in such a short period of time. Today, I'm not the same person I was even a week ago. I'm finally being given the tools I need to create myself on this physical plane as I am on the higher ones.

That has been the one thing that has frustrated me for so long. I'm just as ever I was, and able to do everything I was ever able to do on all the planes I exist on except this one because it is veiled, dense/thick/solid/frozen and very resistant to change. This physical plane does not react to my Will the way the others do. I knew there had to be a trick to it, a different way of doing things that I just wasn't seeing, a way to increase my vibration enough to actually get this stuff (physical plane matter/energy) to move when I push it. I've known this during this entire incarnation - that I should be able to do certain things I couldn't.

Taking the monotomic gold/platinum/iridium has been a huge help in that quest of course, but even that will do you no good if you don't have the instructions for how to get enough energy really moving down here to do anything with. I'd be fine on the higher planes, but unable to stop myself from creating negativity on this plane. My Will was certainly there. I just couldn't manifest it down here enough to make my body behave properly. That is changing now.

Clearing the samskaras is part of the quest. One must overcome fear, despair, anger, etc. There are many techniques for this, and they are all useful, but only up to a certain point. Then the flow of energy/Light/Love through one's chakra system must be allowed to bathe them and dissolve them away. A shift occurs at that point. What was once a struggle and series of unending frustrations becomes an ease of flow and a series of gentle self reminders. Slowly old thought patterns are gently corrected until one is no longer creating negative blockages.

Changing from wanting to get something to a constant giving flow of the energy/Light/Love through my system is a big part of that shift. Allowing the energy to flow through to bless and heal all whom it touches, even random strangers, with no thought of receiving anything in return is what must be now. Even wanting to "get something from x relationship", "get Home to Torlinque" or "get to the Ascension" is still a thought of self, of ego which creates separation and blocks the flow. This process is not about me, but about the energy, the Light, the Love of God/Source finally being able to pour forth into the world through me and all the thousands of others just like me.

In giving, I receive tenfold, and can then of course, give it out again, cycling it like a fountain in ever increasing waves. Torlinque and I, being 2 halves of a whole, can do this together much more effectively than I can alone, and so, we are together as we were meant to be. Unblocking the system of person I'm with on this plane so that the energy/Light/Love flows through it as well as it does through mine is a task we are working on. As I unfold, because of his proximity to me, the person I'm with can do nothing else but unfold as well. I already see it beginning though he does not yet. Eventually, Torlinque will be fully present there as I become more fully present in this body. As above, so below, and Torlinque and I have been Working above for years now.

Time is a tricky thing when one's perception is most often inside of it. Time itself is part of the illusion and only exists down in the lower, more slowly moving planes where energy/Love/Light freezes into matter. So even though Torlinque and I may create something instantly on the planes above, it seems to "take forever" to manifest down here in my perception from within this body. Because the energy down here is frozen into matter, it takes several repeated attempts and a great deal of energy up there to move anything down here even a little bit. As more and more people rise up in vibration however, and take their immediate surroundings with them, this will get easier. It is already getting easier.

I am to help, and teach what I learn to those who choose to listen to me. I do not despair over those who choose not to. There are many like me and more of them awaken and become active every day. Eventually the people who reject me and turn away from my way of saying the message will find another who says it in a way they can resonate with and understand. All Paths lead Home, for truly we are already there. We've just forgotten where to look.