Never Enough
Blog entry

03/30/2006

After I got out of my Thursday meeting at 12:30 (rather than the usual 1 pm), I quickly "ran" to go see Torlinque before he went on shift. He was reading a book, lying on the bed, dressed in the black (looser) pants he works out in sometimes and a black silk shirt he'd thrown on and left open. He looked up and did a signature move of his. He locks his gaze with mine and tosses the book across the room with a flick of his wrist.

I pounced on him, and he wrapped his arms around me. We chatted and kissed for a few minutes and then he said, "I have to shower." I asked him if he wanted me to come in there with him. He said, "Yes. You can help me wash my hair." So I followed him.

I helped him wash his hair, and some mild naughtiness and kisses ensued. Suddenly, he stopped me and sat down on the stone bench built (flowed) into the wall. "I have to tell you something" he said. I could tell it was something he maybe didn't want to tell me, so I waited, a little scared. He sighed. "I have to go away for awhile."

My heart and my stomach fell into my feet. I thought, but didn't Send to him, "No...you cannot...you mustn't...not now..." When he was away on maneuvers that Christmas (2004) I felt like I was going to die. Our bond is even stronger now, and I didn't want to think of what this might do to me. Not now, with the white powder gold and the samskaras. I don't want to know what might happen to me if I were suddenly completely cut off from him for any significant length of time at this point.

I must have turned rather pale, or he felt the impending break in me looming or something because he quickly grabbed me and made me look at him. "You can come with me." he said, "It's not a maneuver. I'm just traveling." Relief washed over me. "Where are you traveling to?" I asked. "Drachlonde." he replied. "I have to take a new crystal to them. Kharie'l told me only this morning." I nodded (Whew. What a relief!)

"I need you to mark something of mine, so that you can find me." he said. "That's what I wanted to tell you."

"You still have your marks here as well, so you can come to me too." I said. He nodded. I asked how long he'll be away. "Well, it takes 3 days to get there, and another day or two to deliver the crystal, then 3 days to get back, so a week at least." "Tolirion will miss you." I said. "Yes, but he is very busy now, and he has [Soul Name of Tolirion's Twin Flame] now, so he'll be all right." I nodded.

"I could mark your fakhai'n..." I thought aloud, "or a belt buckle." "A belt buckle will probably be best." he said, "Something small." I nodded. "All right, I'll do it tonight." I said. I can wear or keep your necklace with me too. That'll make it easier for you. He nodded.

"Will you have that same horse?" I asked. I know how much he dislikes horses. "No!" he said with a grin, "One of the Unicorn has agreed to go with me. He has family in Drachlonde." "Oh that's excellent news."

Then I got interrupted by something at work. When I got back to Torlinque, he was out of the shower and drying himself with a big towel.

"When do you leave?" I asked. "Tomorrow. About midday." he said. "Their current crystal is cracking." A cracking crystal means it must be replaced rather quickly, before it breaks entirely. "Mmm. I've always thought you look absolutely smashing in your patrol uniform anyway." I mused. He grinned. "Is there any danger of running out of crystals if we are now providing them as far away as Drachlonde?" "No." said His Darkness, "They grow them constantly in the Temple now for that very reason." "I see."

I wrapped my arms around him. "We shall sleep under the stars." He smiled, and freed himself gently so that he could get dressed. "Make sure you pack enough food. Hunting might be scarce." He smiled again. "I will."

Then I got interrupted by someone with a problem at work I had to go into their office to fix.

When I got back to my desk, Torlinque was already on duty.

I shall have to ask him later about getting a crystal programmed with Listarin diplomatic words and phrases from the library vault. They will most likely have a translator for him, since they know he is coming, but it never hurts to look like you've made an effort to learn at least a little bit of the native language of the country you are visiting. He can study it on the way.